Sunday, October 21, 2012

Everyday Abi and Ben change. I want it to stop, they are growing up and I can't stop them. They are perfect and I don't want them to grow and change. Abi laughs a little louder, smiles more, and gains confidence everyday. She is happy and smart, she loves school, the stubbornness is fading slightly and she is coming into her own. She's a flower and now that she's found her place and she can blossom. I couldn't be happier or prouder, she is a joy, and I love her to pieces. I am so thankful for her preschool, the friends she is making (and me too).

Ben is my baby. He still likes to be rocked to sleep and cuddle even if he has a big boy bed. He just might be the sweetest, happiest person on earth. If only he'd listen, then he'd be perfect, but I prefer him just the way he is. He's putting two words together now, his favorite "red light". He is still in the 95% for weight at his doctor apt last week and 75% for height. He had to get a shot and he didn't even cry. What a mellow guy.

Me-as of this past week I finally feel good again. Good as in the dark clouds are finally fading. It amazes me the toll emotional stress puts on your body. I haven't had energy in months and although I feel like I'm coming down with yet another cold, and slightly sleep deprived, I feel somehow feel renergized. The other day I was getting Ben out of his car seat to take him into the grocery store and I looked deep into his eyes, they are the most beautiful shade of gold and green in some lights, and my heart swelled with love. Some moments are just so perfect, I'm glad I can appreciate them. My heart has been so preoccupied with hurting that it feels so good to let all the love back in. Everyday I just feel so much love for Abi and Ben it fills me up and makes me complete. Of course the husband too, he does so much for me, and makes me laugh. The other day he suggested we build a pyramid on our lake property, I laughed so hard I almost peed myself.


“The world breaks everyone and afterward many are strong in the broken places.”
–Ernest Hemingway

“When you can not lead them, let your children lead you.”
 
"Everything will be okay, in the end
If it’s not okay, it’s not the end."

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