Almost everyday we go to the park. Today we went to Willis-Tucker park and I meant to bring bathing suits but I didn't think the kids would really get in anyway. I was wrong, but I think they had more fun getting soaked with their clothes on and riding home nudie.

I love going to water parks on cloudy days we were practically the only ones there, and it was warm .

One sunny day, one rainy day

Sunny day- ready, set

slide

splash 



My sister ran the Rock and Roll marathon on Saturday. First marathon post open heart surgery and she qualified for the Boston marathon next year. Unofficial time 3 hours and 38 mins, she is bad ass!



Rainy day at Greenlake park, but the kids didn't care and it was warm.

If you’re up to your eyeballs in kids and under the weather and desperate for the laundry to cut you some slack.

If you’re gasping for breath and wrestling worries and bills and sweating the end of year report cards.

If you can’t bear to come up with one more way to cook chicken.

If you’re short on sleep and high on impatience.

If you feel small or invisible or like you are slowly fading away.

Can I just slip my shoes off, slide over on the sofa and tell you this: I believe God sees you. I believe God cheers you. I believe your work is holy ground and I am proud to stand here barefoot beside you.

I am convinced that the God who made you, sculpted you, loved you into being considers your story just as important as the work of rescuing women from the slums in Kenya or the traffickers in Ukraine.

Even on the days when no one knows what you did. Maybe most especially on those days. When there are no awards or headlines or standing ovations. I believe that the God who began this work in and through you will carry it, and you if necessary, across the finish line. 

And that He understands tired. He gets needing space. He’s lived the burnout of too many demanding hands all tugging at the same time. This Jesus-brother-human-maker who on the day when “so many people were coming and going that they did not even have a chance to eat,” said to his friends, "Come with me by yourself to a quiet place and get some rest."

Ain’t no shame in those days, friends.

Nope, I think those are the holy days. The scars-worn-bravely days.

So, on those days, dear ones, dish up an extra bowl of ice cream and repeat after me:

I am stretched and tired and fearful.

I am wild and brave and broken.

But this one life is on purpose and it’s not by accident where I woke up this morning.

While my closet has a sense of humor and clothes in every size,
my story is richer and fuller for it.

I’ve worn these hips around the labor and delivery dance and they are not ashamed.

I have lost it, yelled it, fought it, cried it and apologized it all before 9am.

I have finger painted, caffeinated, and run out of explanations for a line of why questions that stretches around the living room, out the front door and around the block.

I have tripped on Legos, stepped on scooters, slept on bottom bunks, and strung yards of white, twinkling lights to ward off the dark and their bad dreams.

I have been woken up, shaken up, thrown up, loved up, and shut up. I have never quite, completely, ever given up.

Love sleeps in my bed. Curiosity eats at my table. Delight runs laps around my back yard. Exhaustion is a faithful friend. But so is grace.

If I started tonight and counted backwards all the gifts of this wild and furious season I would still be counting when the grandchildren were standing on tippy toes with noses pressed against these same smudged windows.

So I count dimples instead.

And piles of stray socks and jeans with knees missing and shoes that only fit for a few months and hair cuts and loose teeth and how many times I look at them and say with the disbelief of the proud, “I can’t believe how much you’ve grown!”

I am overwhelmed, infatuated, love struck and completely unhinged. Especially on the nights they bring in wild flowers and all the ever-loving mud in the world.

I am full and fulfilled.

I am older and comfortable in my skin.

I am about the work of raising tiny humans.

I am out of my mind and in my calling and desperate for five minutes alone and a lifetime together.

I want to stop time, tame my fears, bottle their dreams, live a hundred summers of dripping, sticky, chocolate swirl ice cream. And in between I hang onto my faith, my temper, and my sense of humor with my fingernails.

These are the good days, the glory days, the slow-as-molasses days. These are the fast years, the wonder years, the how-do-I-find-words years.

But we do. They usually start with “help” and end with “thank you” and the middle?

The middle is a thick layer of reliable wonder sometimes whispered, often shouted, always answered.

The middle is me. The middle is you. The middle is just this one, sacred, take-off-your-shoes-worthy syllable,

“mom.”

(This was a guest post on Momastery (can't take any credit), love it!)

Little bug got a summer do (fuzzy head to cool dude)

Don't these sweet kiddos look alike in this pic?

 

Abi's mini room makeover (less than $50 at Home Goods). I finally got rid of her baby rug and baby lamp and flower and butterfly theme, since she is a little girl now -not a baby.

 

New lamp

New mirror, rug, and pillow.

Father's Day Weekend

Tongue out cracks me up

Little buddy loves the boat

Papa got to see our lake place and go out on the boat. The weather was perfect.

Abi driving (makes mom nervous)

Couldn't stay awake, he slept right through Brad wake boarding.

Flag girl

Ice cream in Chelan

 While we were eating ice cream Ben said, "this ice cream is deee-licious!" -still so funny to hear him talk in sentences.

Lake Chelan

Father's Day BBQ

Aunt Keri and Ben

Papa and kiddos

High tolerance for annoying things

I have noticed lately that I have acquired a high tolerance for annoying things. Mostly whining, crying children but also the dog licking, scratching, barking, stains, dirt, ruined stuff. Also, add getting woken up by kids crying in my ear early in the morning after a late work night and five hours of sleep. I wasn't always this way, I have been beaten into submission by my sweet children, or maybe it's a survival mechanism. I no longer care when two steps into Target they start screaming about which cart they want and where they want to sit, I expect it and expect it to continue the whole trip. Grocery store, mall, home, no where is off limits for tantrums and fits. Even at work I find myself calmly finishing a task while tubes drop and alarms and timers are going off around me and others are scrambling to turn them off. I'm actually kind of proud of my new found tolerance, otherwise I might be in the loony bin.

Bubble bath and park

 Ben's face cracks me up, I'm not sure he's ever had a bubble bath so he was super excited.

(all these pics are from my phone, so they aren't the best quality)

Finally learning to pump, thank the lord.

Meeting daddy so I can go to work.